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Deviousness `anmari has been spreading her infectious positivity throughout our community for over 6 years. Throughout this time Ana has been at the core of all things devious, passionately developing an eclectic gallery, helping organise devmeets, participating in chat events and also recently completed dedicating her time as a Community Volunteer. We are absolutely delighted to bestow the Deviousness Award for May 2013 to `anmari, congratulations! Read More
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(and a good time to laught about the rules of fashion)
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To the message: But what if you're like me, and have a terribly boring personality despite trying everything to change that? Which is why I work out really hard and pay a lot of attention to looks, because my personality just pushes people away. Or just bores them away I guess, I don't know... Anyhow, what are people like me supposed to do?
What do you mean "boring personality"? Boring people are usually those bored with themselves. Maybe it's not exactly what pushes people away from you. I don't know.
Looking good is great. I've been through a stage of declining the importance of the appearance, but it turned out it was much more fun to use it to express yourself. So I ended up dyeing my hair blue and pretending I was a smart doll. But I still only do it to please myself, not someone else. Too lazy to waste time trying to get everyone like me.
so, I try to compensate at least a little with having a good physique and style. Maybe I can at least look interesting.
While, of course, I maintain my own style. I am a very aesthetical person, I care a lot about a sense of style, and am also very vain. Probably because I#ve got a rather fragile self esteem.
See, I'm one of those who got raised very lonely by a very intellectualised family, which turned me shy and socially awkward. Which, in turn, made me being mobbed and crushed my self esteem until I turned 15 / 16, when my high IQ got discovered. Anyway, I changed and became attractive and extroverted when the German equivalent of high school was almost over - leaving me kinda scarred and insecure in the core.
I have no idea why I'm annoying you with that, btw, I just think I really need to talk to someone. ^^
I understand how you feel, for my problems are in many ways similar.
I have a hard time making friends, too, and no idea about the reasons of this. I don't think it's because I'm boring, though. (And I don't think this is your problem, either.)
I might be too eccentric. I'm also quite picky and critical, which involves, above all, relationships.
I feel so sorry for those people who meet me for the first time, surrounded by ten-minute awkward silence, having me next to them with a weird wide smile staring silently. That's when you feel you have nothing to say, despite all your hobbies and braininess.
On the other hand, I can talk for hours if inspired.
It depends on your company, too.
I'm not surprised by the fact I never got along with some of my classmates whose interests ranged from alcohol to boyfriends. That's ok. That's annoyingly common. And even if you're a really intelligent person, some people won't even take a glance at you.
So, if you were looking for some kind of advice, then, well, I'm terribly sorry... It's nice to talk to someone like that, anyway. :3
Congrats on the deserved DD.